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updates on stuff...
Sep. 8th, 2009 01:43 pm1- I just over $300 by selling books that the previous phd students left. Whoo!
2- I've decided to get a scooter to get around town. I could get one lower than 50cc which wouldn't require a motorcycle permit, but I could only stay in town, whereas if I get a 150cc I can travel to local towns, and more specifically to the snake river and other places like it to get my 'nature fix.' This means I have to get motorcycle permit... and license... which is not easy here. However, I think it will actually help me get my residency sooner... and I only have until the end of the month to do it.
3- I've also decided to get a hedgehog. I really wanted one when I was in MI but didn't due to the trip and that my dorm doesn't allow for them... (I was gonna sneak in Malcom) . I also didn't want two illegal pets...however, seeing that I would have no problem keeping a new critter a secret, I want one. I think it will help keep me company which is actually the underlying factor.
4- I've noticed that during the week, I'm really in a good place... I work and study and enjoy it. I feel like I have purpose... It's during the weekend that I struggle... because all I have is my studies and that's really hard to deal... and really lonely. I realized that much of the anxiety and ... well this weekend was a depression (I would consider crying at least 2x a day pretty depressing)... is due to my lack of people... specifically, quality people. Because, as snotty as it sounds, I don't want to waste my energy with people who are not worth my time. There is also a possibility that Naomi will be able to come this weekend... she has to get permission from her doctors, and it would only be for one day, two max, but I could honestly use the (emotional) break. This weekend proved that. Mom also offered a 1 day trip home if I needed it... which I am still up in the air on... I know I need to be here... so we'll see about that. If Naomi can't come this weekend... I may see about a one day trip home this weekend even... if it's possible... I know I need a break. Just a brief emotional reprieve... I need people... my people... one or several... I don't care... I just miss ... well... how can I say it... the energy exchange (?). Not sure that makes sense... but many people suck energy from me... most are at least neutral. Few actually add to me and me to them... Those are my people. Those are the people I miss.
2- I've decided to get a scooter to get around town. I could get one lower than 50cc which wouldn't require a motorcycle permit, but I could only stay in town, whereas if I get a 150cc I can travel to local towns, and more specifically to the snake river and other places like it to get my 'nature fix.' This means I have to get motorcycle permit... and license... which is not easy here. However, I think it will actually help me get my residency sooner... and I only have until the end of the month to do it.
3- I've also decided to get a hedgehog. I really wanted one when I was in MI but didn't due to the trip and that my dorm doesn't allow for them... (I was gonna sneak in Malcom) . I also didn't want two illegal pets...however, seeing that I would have no problem keeping a new critter a secret, I want one. I think it will help keep me company which is actually the underlying factor.
4- I've noticed that during the week, I'm really in a good place... I work and study and enjoy it. I feel like I have purpose... It's during the weekend that I struggle... because all I have is my studies and that's really hard to deal... and really lonely. I realized that much of the anxiety and ... well this weekend was a depression (I would consider crying at least 2x a day pretty depressing)... is due to my lack of people... specifically, quality people. Because, as snotty as it sounds, I don't want to waste my energy with people who are not worth my time. There is also a possibility that Naomi will be able to come this weekend... she has to get permission from her doctors, and it would only be for one day, two max, but I could honestly use the (emotional) break. This weekend proved that. Mom also offered a 1 day trip home if I needed it... which I am still up in the air on... I know I need to be here... so we'll see about that. If Naomi can't come this weekend... I may see about a one day trip home this weekend even... if it's possible... I know I need a break. Just a brief emotional reprieve... I need people... my people... one or several... I don't care... I just miss ... well... how can I say it... the energy exchange (?). Not sure that makes sense... but many people suck energy from me... most are at least neutral. Few actually add to me and me to them... Those are my people. Those are the people I miss.
