introspection

[nirvelli_lynn]

 Well... I've decided on 5 schools to apply to for the phd programs... I may also be looking into some sociology master's programs but I have some work to find schools of interest before doing so.  But... the schools that I'm looking at are:

• University of Toronto
• University of Seattle (a long shot.... but still on my list
• Queens University (Kingston, Ontario)
• University of Connecticut (I may be traveling here in the next few weeks)
• University of Cincinnati

I'm starting to realized what this entails... I know I won't have a life for the next 5+ years. Do I know if I'm ready?  I don't know if this is something one ever really KNOWS they are ready for.... But I know that I'm gonna try. I know that if don't get into any programs, I'm gonna keep trying. It would totally suck to have to wait another year.  I don't even know what I would do with myself outside of studying to conquer the GMAT. I know I would take a few classes in Linear Algebra and some other advanced math classes... And I would keep working to conquer that damn test. But I would do it.  I don't want to... but I will. If I'm not ready yet, I will be by next year. I am considering taking the test again in January. That way I could still apply the better test scores to my current apps. I don't know if I'm gonna do this yet. Right now, I'm working on each individual application. It's a process... but one I'm not giving up on.

And yes... I did look up the links... I listened to the speaker/student in Chicago who basically said that he has no life... and I understand that. It will be interesting to live... but I want this... if I can't have it now... I will have it. For the first time, something is not coming easy... it's a change for me ;) 

But I'm not giving up.