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Avalon was ... refreshing. And while that doesn't even begin to cover it all, it is enough for the moment.
I stayed with Leora and got to know my two cousins a bit more. Art (4) is quiet and plays much to himself.. when he's not wrestling his brother and running around the house. Austin (3) is talkative and likes to be around people. Kiera (3mo) really just likes to be left alone. She loves watching people, and fans. :) Leora is such a good mom. It was awesome to see.
We had a few conversations, Leora and I... about life... kids... foster care... and our past. She said some things that I noted... particularly about a conversation we had when we were 5 or 6... sitting on the stairs of her house... and how I rememeber things in third person from that age. I don't know what I think about all that. I don't fear memories from that time... but I also don't have many. I do feel that I was ok. I just think I saw a lot of stuff that wasn't ok.
Monday I walked the property. I haven't been there in at least a year or two... it was good. Really good. I somehow managed to ground myself. Actually... I was "grounding" . But I solidified which was very good. After walking the property, I went down to see the Lake. Wow is she cold! The waves had bits of ice... slush, that was lapping on the shore. Before I left, I reached in and grabbed one small rock (nearly freezing my hand off).
Then, I came home... well, actually, I drove to EL since I had Sistrum. The drive was nice. I wrote some things while I was there. It was a good trip. Everything I knew it would be... and more.
I stayed with Leora and got to know my two cousins a bit more. Art (4) is quiet and plays much to himself.. when he's not wrestling his brother and running around the house. Austin (3) is talkative and likes to be around people. Kiera (3mo) really just likes to be left alone. She loves watching people, and fans. :) Leora is such a good mom. It was awesome to see.
We had a few conversations, Leora and I... about life... kids... foster care... and our past. She said some things that I noted... particularly about a conversation we had when we were 5 or 6... sitting on the stairs of her house... and how I rememeber things in third person from that age. I don't know what I think about all that. I don't fear memories from that time... but I also don't have many. I do feel that I was ok. I just think I saw a lot of stuff that wasn't ok.
Monday I walked the property. I haven't been there in at least a year or two... it was good. Really good. I somehow managed to ground myself. Actually... I was "grounding" . But I solidified which was very good. After walking the property, I went down to see the Lake. Wow is she cold! The waves had bits of ice... slush, that was lapping on the shore. Before I left, I reached in and grabbed one small rock (nearly freezing my hand off).
Then, I came home... well, actually, I drove to EL since I had Sistrum. The drive was nice. I wrote some things while I was there. It was a good trip. Everything I knew it would be... and more.
