past and present

I was searching through old boxes today and found some things I'd thought long since gone - namely pictures and letters from Brazil. I've not seen pictures from Brazil in over 15 years... and found letters from warsop , Becky, mom, casey, dad, and many other people. I had a lot of support while I was gone... I even found a journal that I'd kept while I was there. So much has changed since then.

It was nice to find those memories though... Tera at 15... wow.

Tonight my anxiety is high so I'm trying a new med. It should also help me sleep. I've been working on my personal statement all weekend and I have to combine it with my Statement of Purpose... (what types of questions I want to address... etc)  and depending on the school, add that to the statement, or do a seperate essay. This stuff is a bitch... but... with help... I know it will be fine.  I'm just having a hard time not fighting myself on all of this... Sometimes, I know I deliberately set myself up for failure and I'm struggling to stop doing this. And that task is taking a bit out of me right now.  But... all will be fine. I'll simply do everything I can... and... now should attempt sleep.