WW

[nirvelli_lynn]

I finally went back to a meeting this morning... it was perfect timing since they are changing the payment system... plus... the topic was relevent... teh Enviroment-Behaviors-Capabilities-Beliefs-Identity target... 

I've been kinda, well, not even kinda... struggling with weight. And I'm loosing. But I'm supposed to eat at least 21 or 20 points per day, and yesterday I only managed 12. I guess, at least I'm keeping track. I know awarness is 1/2 the battle... I'm also less than 15 pounds away from my goal weight. That's just... wow.  Granted I still want to keep loosing after my goal weight (because ww goal is different than mine... but the meetings are free after I reach 'goal').  But I've been worried about loosing... I lost nearly 5 pounds in the past 1.5 weeks... That's not unreasonable.. and no one questioned. (In fact I got congratulations.) But I know... and I'm concerned.  And while I want to be proud of loosing, I know I need to be aware of it. 

And I am...  So one change I'm making today is just to do an UltraMeal from Metagenics in the morning... that way I get some form of nutrition in the morning and it's like 2 points or something... Plus coffee.  At least that is one change I can make. That way I'm eatting.  Lunch today is Miso soup.  (1 point) I know it's not much... but it is what I can do. I'll probablly do pretzles or fruit for a snack or with lunch. We'll see.  I do have a meeting at P.F. Cheng's at 3 and there may be food involved.... that could be Dinner... I dunno. I have softball today so I know I need to eat enough to not pass out. I should be good with what I'm eatting and may grab something later, after practice.  In some ways, I doubt I will... but I hope to. And after practice is often easier to eat than before. We'll see. If I eat at P.F. Chengs I should be good. 

Why is food so difficult... this has never been my issue. Granted I'm glad I'm not over eatting, but I know undereatting is just as bad. And I know I need to work on being 'healthy'.  It's just not that easy...

Emotinally I'm doing well and feeling pretty good. My roller coaster has finally stopped flipping and going 100 miles a minute. So that is good... One step at a time.