Vegas

[nirvelli_lynn]

I'm home. And So glad to be here. :)  Vegas was good. I have an entire book to write to write and update LJ, but that will have to wait until tomorrow, or maybe later tonight. 

But the basic rundown is: 

Things with Erica are good. Things were rough at a few points but that was expected as new lines in our relationship are drawn.
We opened up levels of communication (about our relationship) that had never been there. We both realized we compromised a lot... and that the end (of us) was such a good thing.  We also transitioned into friends much easier than I could even have reasonably expected.
The two bedroom apt was a good thing. We both needed our seperate space. (The  resort was awesome and beautiful!)
We immediately walked into a role as "friends" and stayed there. There was no desire to even kiss her, which made things much easier. (So nothing "happened" which was a credit to us both. And an easy accomplishment.)
Vegas was fun. We walked a *lot*.
Zumanity was a great show.
She is happy with her life... and I am happy with mine.

Basically... we're both ok where we are at. We need seperation. The vacation was one day too long, which we now know. But in the end, we're ok. 

Things I've learned:

1- Wine is good.
2- Erica demands more attention than I could or would ever want to give her
3- her world revolves around her partner 24-7
4- I dont want this
5- I want my own life... and my partner to have hers (yes you create a life together, but I don't need to be with them *all* the time)
6- I like my world
7- I like my relationships
8- Traveling with Erica is fun but 6 days (5 + 2 1/2 days) is too much
9- I would vacation with Erica again but 3-4 days would be ideal
10-Things are as they are supposed to be.