Patience is a virtue

[nirvelli_lynn]

I'm finally getting to the point where waiting is getting to me. I haven't heard from UConn since the interview and I've still got 6 other schools out there who didn't contact me. I'm feeling like I failed. I'm feeling like my life is influx and I can't move forward. I want to know if I've not been accepted, because at least then I could move on, change direction, realize that maybe I'm going the wrong direction and just... start moving! I hate this. I feel like I'm going no where. I feel like everything is stagnant and my anxiety to deal with this... is getting higher as my tolerance gets lower. I know being sick the past few days is adding to this. I know the breakup with Kate is wearing on me too. I just want to MOVE and I can't. I don't want to pursue plan B yet... I do know of several options...several things I could do, people to contact etc... but I don't want to do that yet until I have a fcuking CLUE. So I'm left just sitting here... feeling like I failed... waiting and unable to move in any direction. I'm emotional and starting to feel the onset of self deprecation. This just sucks. I feel myself slipping a bit. But...as Nicole stated... "Maybe it's just today."